Life is short, and hands feel good.

oh oh oh oh oh!!! I am so excited I finally found a way to share this song and amazing band with the rest of the world!!! Such a lovely little band I found here in Portland....all because i started talking to this girl who had the same name as me, Kali! She gave me her CD and it was love at first listen. This song, The Dirty Song, is my favorite cause its just so darn cute! I was riding my bike and daydreaming of that boy and this song came on my Ipod and I got goosebumps all over my body and a smile so big you could have seen it from Mars.
my favorite....
"If you put your hands on me, well i will never try to be too respectable, because LIFE IS SHORT AND HANDS FEEL GOOD"

Make you feel my love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love 

newness

Some of the new beautiful things I have recently been blessed with in my life.

1.The base piece to my very first tattoo!

I am adding some flowers to it soon, all influenced by this Gorgia O'Keefe painting. My skull is obviously a little different, because the one that I got is the actual skull from the Montana state seal.....my homeland!

2. A beautiful cozy little studio apartment tucked into the heart of downtown Portland!

all I have is the picture i took on my phone..... but you get the idea....its my sanity and happy place.

3. I have been seeing a new guy....and he is just so dope.

He makes me laugh more than I knew another person ever could....and he is creative and he listens and pays attention to the little things....and when im hanging out with him, well i just smile a lot.....and I just feel good. Everything is just so much more fun when we are together.....I have more fun doing little things than i ever had at a grown up age.

The sun has been shining and the weather is warming up and I feel so happy these beautiful days lately. I have some beautiful friendships that have and will continue to withstand anything....

he and I took our bikes out for the first time of the year and i could just feel in my hair and smell in the air that I have one beautiful summer comming my way.

The crisp fall days like today make me feel unbroken and reinforced once again. The oranges and yellows cover my entire street like a blanket(seriously!) and the beautiful bright trees frame my lovely little life.

Portland is beautiful, and I am grateful to be here, for I feel like this city and I have been waiting our whole lives to wrap our arms around eachother and life a happy future tangled up in one another.

My house is sooo beautiful,my roomie is my heart and soul, my lover is just so....ahhh...amazing. I am so lucky. I love you fall.

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my existence

I woke up this morning after one of those life changing nights of sleep. I made my tea out of lavender and mint from my very own yard, I watered my plants, I ate a banana....and I walked down to Powells where i set my soul free for 3 1/2 hours. I bought 2 new books. A novel by Marisa De Los Santos that I will share mofe information about when I am done reading it. I also bought Eat play love by Elizabeth Gilbert which i have heard so much about for so long I had to just get it and im ecstatic to read it! My dad called and he asked about my bookstore trip and I told him what the book was about and he said "oh great, another inspiration for you to do what i've come to accept you will inevitably do at some point in your life.

Anyway. It's rained off and on al day and I have been sitting here with my blanket wrapped around my shoulders and I have read, then wrote for a bit, then read a bit more, made a bit more tea, wrote a teeny bit, then read quite a bit more. My room is my own palace. All i have is my beautiful life and my mental picture machine (a wise man once called it)....and I am one of the luckiest people alive.

my forever favorite

You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit, you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work you and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind
Well I been down and I need your help I’ve been feeling sorry for myself
Don’t hesitate to boost my confidence
I been lost and I need direction, I could use a little love-protection
What do you say, honey, come to my defense?
I’ll stand up for you if it’s what you need and I can take a punch, I don’t mind to bleed
As long as afterwards you feel bad for me
And you give me all of your attention I got deep desire and it needs quenchin’
I think that’s pretty plain for you to see
Hell, enough about me and more about you cause that’d be the gentlemanly thing to do
I hope you like your men sweet and polite
I thought I was done with telling you but I ain’t nearly halfway through
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I got a few more things I’d like to say to you tonight
You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work out and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind
You always did kind of drive me crazy and pissed me off ‘cause I let it faze me
But I never wanted my time with you to end
Now I’m back in town for a day or two and mostly I came back just to see you
I’m leaving now but I don’t want to go
You don’t need to change a thing about you babe
I’m telling you
From where I sit you’re one of a kind
Relationships, I don’t know why, they never work out and they make you cry
But the guy that says goodbye to you is out of his mind

my trip to an oasis of serinity

This is such a beautiful whimsicle of a life i am creating and falling to for myself. It has been such a beautiful week for me. Remember my last post? Well on Sunday night I escaped everything but love and warmth and went to his home, his oasis of serinity. My bones were no longer cold, my skin was no longer dry or untouched, my soul no longer felt lost. His fingers through my hair and on every single inch of my skin....woke up at 2pm the next day with a delightful breakfast made and placed on my lap, and an afternoon of music making,sweet summer kisses, and frisbee games. That evening brought the same...i never turned my phone on, i never had any worries.....it was beautiful. The girls were there the whole time as well showering me with all the love I could have ever imagined to get from friends. I woke up after a 40hr straight dreamland of all this and accepted and recapped it all in my mind on the I-5 corridor.....i had to go to my mother ocean. And I did, and she wrapped her big beautiful arms around me and swollowed me in. I jumped in and washed the sweet kisses off my skin as the sun set behind her. It was truly so beautiful...words will never be able to describe the beautiful way i began this lovely week.

forgetting to forget you

It's a time when i need to focus on writing again. Tonight I tried to meet up with my friends after keeping my distance for some time...and i ducked out the door of the bar, said nothing...and i got on my bike and i road, i road as fast as my little legs could peddle me into the night, through the wind...away from everyone off with the stars. We as humans always kind of want what we can't have and when we have it we are over it....I think of myself as a grateful person. I am grateful that such and increadable man is fascinated by my everything and radiates with happiness when he is in my presence. However, i am having a hard time feeling grateful for the fact that my mind travels further and further off with the stars every day i am in his company. My mind and the stars always fine themselves revolving around the same old person as usual.....that beautiful man who always steals my focus of passion. The one I never really have been with, the one that over years we have had only a couple of cuddle puddle hangouts, but they were so beautiful....and they constantly take my mind away with the stars when im where I was tonight....I know his mind isn't off with the stars and my mind and heart.....But he is beautiful and time and time again i feel like i have no control over where and when my mind and heart goes....

"we could sit beneath the evening let the day turn blue, I could never let the darkness replace the thought of you. Come on darlin lets catch that train to wherever we call god, honey its a message who said so....maybe not. It's just you and I, baby you and I. When all the world turns into hospitals and jails...I can always count of your love to be my bed. We'll go travelin' on year to year.....just you and I my dear.....it'll be the same every year."

I've fallen in love, and it feels lovely.

I may hold the world record for finding true love so quickly upon moving to a new place. I have met so many beautiful people in the month I have lived in Portland, but more so than anything I have found 3 very special people who I can so confidently believe that we were all placed in this universe to spend our lives together. We just had our one week friendship anniversary yesterday, which absolutly blows my mind. Andrew and Angie and myself have traveled to the beach and back and traveled deep into the depths of eachothers life faster than I ever have with any one other person in my life. A drop of rain fell from the sky the other night and then one fell from my eye with sadness that the three of us would not be able to crawl into our beautiful little nest bed of down fluffy blankets we had made in my backyard. We curled up together for 6 nights straight under a blanket of stars in the sky....and every morning I woke up not remembering falling asleep, just remembered laughing and smiling and then all of the sudden it was morning. I love my new life, I love my new friends. I am the luckiest girl in the world, and Portland is and will forever be my home. It is true beautiful peace here.

momma

I am so blessed to have such an amazing momma. She is my best friend and I am so thankful for that. It has been such a true blessing to watch our relationship change and grow over the years and more than anything it has truly been so incredible to see how much i resemble her more and more and the years go on. My heart hurts a bit today that I can't be with my special mommy...but soon, i know soon, we will be back in the same area code. I know in my heart that she knows that she is always in my heart, especially today. thank you momma for life, for love, and for raising me to be the woman that I am today. I can only hope to the anything close to the unbelievable woman you are one day

my beautifully creative little friends...

I've been so overwhelmed by the company around me lately, as I close my chapter of life in Eugene and prepare for the next one of life in Portland.  I may be one of the most blessed people in the world, due to the fact that I am surrounded by some of the most talented musicians in all of the land. And it surely isn't just a couple of my friends, but it seems to be almost every last one of them are musical genius'. A bit of whisky gets in any one of our systems and we began writing songs and playing music narrating our lives at the moment, and I am constantly in a state of shock by the hilarious and creative people I have in my life. My whole world is a crazy ambiviant whimsicle train wreck of cardboard boxes holding all of my belongings as I take on this move over these couple of days......but somehow through it all I have felt more happy, satisfied and so grateful by this beautiful life I have than usual.  My friends, my family, and my very blessed little life is so amazing. Enjoy my friend Ben singing this song to my cat, and Naima and I's star wars fight to scare away the racoons in our yard that we had last night.

new beginnings

Woke up with the sun this morning early and I packed my suitcase full of jasper and knickknacks and took a beautiful sun lit drive to Portland. House hunting!!! yeah!! We had appointments to see several houses, but only ended up going to 2 because the others didn't seem up to standards from the outside. The places we looked at and did walk throughs in were lovely! absolutely lovely! I just love my sweet Portland so much and I am getting so excited to have that be my new home. I don't think that either of the places we saw today were "the one" however the search has only begun. Cheers to summer, blue skies, and new beginnings.

i love you project

I found a beautiful little box packed with 4o different post cards that say I love you in 40 different beautifully creative ways. It's essentially my good dead of the day or the week if you will. I sat and made a list of 39 people in my life that i felt needed or deserved a I love you reminder from me. Times are tuff these days, economy is whack, its the end of the winter and people are longing for that sun and clarity and peace again.....and I don't know about you but if i randomly got a postcard in the mail saying i love you......you would be sure to see a big smile on my face for awhile. My first card went to my sweet beautiful friend JJ. i wrote my second one today and am walking it out to the mailbox now....

I'm so excited to bring more love to 40 wonderful people.