its a wild world

This is the beauty that I thought to myself in my head as a little girl of how I wanted to live when I grew up. This all that i have created for myself here is actually more than my little child mind could fathom when I dreamed for a lovely place i would call home one day.....its more amazing, more beautiful, its more peaceful, and it just feels better than I knew it ever could.  I have to say....I am very pround of myself.

First I would like to present one before picture from a month and a half ago when I moved into this house.  Then I will show all my latest shots of the yard......and maybe everyones questions of where I got all day when no one can find me will be answered.

And now my recent beautiful creation.....

.I just can only hope that others enjoy this beauty the way that I do.

I've fallen in love, and it feels lovely.

I may hold the world record for finding true love so quickly upon moving to a new place. I have met so many beautiful people in the month I have lived in Portland, but more so than anything I have found 3 very special people who I can so confidently believe that we were all placed in this universe to spend our lives together. We just had our one week friendship anniversary yesterday, which absolutly blows my mind. Andrew and Angie and myself have traveled to the beach and back and traveled deep into the depths of eachothers life faster than I ever have with any one other person in my life. A drop of rain fell from the sky the other night and then one fell from my eye with sadness that the three of us would not be able to crawl into our beautiful little nest bed of down fluffy blankets we had made in my backyard. We curled up together for 6 nights straight under a blanket of stars in the sky....and every morning I woke up not remembering falling asleep, just remembered laughing and smiling and then all of the sudden it was morning. I love my new life, I love my new friends. I am the luckiest girl in the world, and Portland is and will forever be my home. It is true beautiful peace here.

a feeling of motherhood

I have put so much time and devotion and love into my yard, and most of all the many many rose bushes that fill my yard. Well the rewarding time and season of my new babies comming to life is here!!!! I MIGHT have a total of 15 flowers that are bloomed in my yard, and there is probably a total of about 1,500 that should bloom over the next couple weeks.(and no, that is NOT an exageration) Anyway i can't began to explain how powerfully wonderful it makes me feel inside to finally see some of my many children that I have devoted myself to finally come to life.

my new creation and my new palace...

I don't understand what exactly it is that I did in this lifetime of mine to deserve this beautiful life and this beautiful home that I have got for myself. I have put every free moment I have into my new palace that I am crazy in love with. I have not wrote in so long, partly because I have enjoyed so much of my free time with my new best friend.....my yard, my garden. My new yard is peace. Complete peace is harder to find than you may think. But the palace and the beautifu garden I have created in my yard is something that I personally find as complete peace

momma

I am so blessed to have such an amazing momma. She is my best friend and I am so thankful for that. It has been such a true blessing to watch our relationship change and grow over the years and more than anything it has truly been so incredible to see how much i resemble her more and more and the years go on. My heart hurts a bit today that I can't be with my special mommy...but soon, i know soon, we will be back in the same area code. I know in my heart that she knows that she is always in my heart, especially today. thank you momma for life, for love, and for raising me to be the woman that I am today. I can only hope to the anything close to the unbelievable woman you are one day

Kato Mate

I have not wrote in so long because I have been in the chaotic move to Portland, and never really had internet or really 2 seconds to breathe. I feel great, i have an amazing feeling of clarity sitting here on my bed in my room that is finally all put together in this new palace I have. My last week in Eugene was something that changed me for life. It was truly the most increadable realization of how loved and lucky i really am. I was showered with beautiful momentos, cards, photos, and even a huge going away party with some of the most increadable people I have ever met, topped with some insanely lovely moments with some special portland lovers too:) I am such a lucky woman, and I feel well acomplished. Also I started at my new job today, and I just have to turn the experience into a more positive thing, which being said......it only made me really apreciate what I had in Eugene. I finally broke free those doors after my shift and fell to the ground sobbing in tears. It was terrible! anyway, kato Mate, all is well.....i am grateful

canon???

anever in my life used a cannon before but I set out on a mission to learn how the other night. I want one, enough said.